O kay, let's go... I'll try to explain all my thoughts but now, I don't know how can I tell you it... It is true, I'm very nasty, but it is the only way of showing my fears... And I don't know if I could write now, because I am so nervous and sad... I'm...

We always have to make a choice. I don't want to. I'm afraid by the future and I don't know why. I wanted to be like the others, with a semblance of happiness, of love... Just the life. But I'm so tired that I think I'll not be able to continue. I just...